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You claim that you "do not think," but clearly you do, otherwise you would have no job, or relationship with your wife or children.
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Sure, but in young age I was obsessed with thinking.
I always had some mental dialog inside, when awake.
Now I don't. I think when I need to but after then I'm quickly back into the state like ... when you look at sunset and think about nothing, kinda that, all the time.
This is a product of regular meditation.

I cannot even start thinking like "I am this or that" or " I love or don't love somebody" because first of all I have troubles formulating the very first part: who is "I".
I sort of cannot look at myself, I look from _inside_ myself to the outside world.

I'm not good, I'm not bad. If you smile - I smile. If you beat me - I beat you. Just like a mirror.